My Mental Musical Gift That Has Yet To Be Recognized
Note to Reader: This post has much more insight into my composing dream and even includes a Q&A Section. It gives full insight for the reader and is a much more coherent presentation/explanation of my composing dream.
Even though I don't know anything about composing, I have created really good tunes in my head for now. I have created a melody that, to me, conveys something awesome. It was a melody created through channeling inspiration. I've got down the right notes and rests to this melody I hear in my mind and I got the right tempo.
The scene I envision this melody conveying would be a dark character such as Shadow the Hedgehog unleashing a magnitude of energy. What you hear playing at the higher octave is to prepare the listener for what's about to happen next. It would be a leading tune that I think people call the "bridge" in music. Therefore, this part of the melody would convey Shadow preparing to unleash.
Then you hear things playing at the lower octave and this is where Shadow unleashes his power. This part is supposed to be the chorus which conveys awesome, dark, heavy, powerful emotion. Now, this melody is supposed to be awesome, catchy, and dark. It's not just the instruments I've chosen for this melody that convey a dark, awesome mood.
It's the actual melody itself that conveys this to me. If anyone tells me that this melody conveys nothing of the sort, that it's nothing catchy, that it's "ok," or that it's all musical gibberish or something lame/awful, then perhaps it's because more things are needed to make this melody coherent for the listener and to fully bring out its intended power.
You see, there's more to making music than just having the melody down and a beat. There are so many other factors and, as long as those factors aren't met, then music might appear like gibberish or something unpleasant for the listener. Only I know what this melody is supposed to be and only I know the awesome power it has since I'm the one who created it. Other people might not know because I have yet to find a way to fully convey the melody for other listeners.
Me knowing what this melody is supposed to be is a memory. In other words, if I were to lose that memory somehow, I would perhaps see my melody as gibberish because I would no longer know what it's supposed to be. This has, in fact, happened to me with other tunes I've made. The memory just didn't stick there and, as a result, I lost the memory and perceived my created tunes as gibberish. Fortunately, with this tune I've made, the memory is permanent.
I have also managed to bring back some of the memories of my previous tunes which means I'm back to perceiving them as amazing, catchy tunes since I now know what they're supposed to be. Anyway, I have this dark melody on a cd. But here is the youtube link to this dark melody. In addition, I will also give a link to the music sheet of this melody. One last thing here. I play the melody backwards because I also love the reversed melody.
With all of that being said, I am now going to share the links to my tunes. These are simple, catchy, memorable tunes that are great and they all convey different scenes and atmospheres. Some of these tunes convey powerful and profound emotion. But said emotion might not be conveyed because these melodies might not be successfully conveyed in their current stage.
Nonetheless, I am going to share them anyway. I do have a beat to go along with these tunes which is a beat based off of the melody itself. This beat consists of 8th notes and, hopefully, having this beat conveys my melodies. If not, then I would have to learn more so that I can successfully convey them later on down the road. So, here is the youtube link to my 1st melody which is that dark tune I was talking about:
https://youtu.be/TObyPOj3oBk
Here is a youtube link to the same tune. But the tune is slowed down because I also like the slow version:
https://youtu.be/yj_jbGcuH0w
Here is a link to a new tune I recently made. I think it could very well be my best one. It conveys a strong, dramatic emotion and is catchy. When the tune is played the 1st time, you just hear a choir instrument along with some other instrument for the beat. I don't think these are the proper instruments. Although, I just put this one up there anyway because it's what I created on the music notation software.
The 2nd time you hear the tune play is where you hear suitable instruments that I think bring out the dramatic power of the tune. There is also a pattern to this tune because it alternates between something playing in the treble clef and then something playing in the bass clef. Here is the youtube link to this tune:
https://youtu.be/NLBh4TeVzCo
Here is the youtube link to this tune slowed down. I think it conveys something very cool slowed down. Again, just listen through when the tune plays the 1st time and then listen to it the 2nd time because it's awesome when played the 2nd time:
https://youtu.be/7YawbSwwtbs
Here is that tune sped up:
https://youtu.be/OtU-1YEZXas
Now, here is a link to a different tune. This tune is supposed to convey something bizarre and mysterious such as being all alone in a far away distant time period or galaxy:
https://youtu.be/JgRDtow1dkw
Here is a link to that same tune, but with a different choice of instruments that I like:
https://youtu.be/LYr5bb7ad7w
Here is that same tune. But slowed down and added to a scene in Sonic the Hedgehog. The slow version sounds sort of creepy/ominous which is the reason why I have added it to this scene:
https://youtu.be/r9bVXngzM3A
Here is a link to a short, simple, catchy melody:
https://youtu.be/kbAm07PE9OQ
Here is a link to a bit of a weird tune I made:
https://youtu.be/QYp5Rbj8Ogg
Here is a Super Mario Galaxy 2 tune I made which would convey the scene of Mario obtaining the Grand Green Star. In Super Mario Galaxy 2, Mario collects yellow stars and then he collects the big yellow stars known as the Grand Stars. Later on in the game, you start to collect green stars.
But there is no Grand Green Star in that game. Therefore, I have come up with this theme which expresses Mario obtaining the Grand Green Star which would be a special, secret, hidden star. I first have the melody in basic piano form so that the notes of this melody can be distinctly heard:
https://youtu.be/7O7iNKXliio
From there, I have the Super Mario Galaxy 2 tune with more suitable instruments:
https://youtu.be/lMrm7dDercc
Here is a lovely tune which I think would be a full theme song:
https://youtu.be/duFBsxKpHaE
Here is a beautiful, catchy tune that I think many people would really love:
https://youtu.be/qfuhxB0Dkas
Lastly, here is a tune that's also really good which would be a haunting tune. I haven't chosen the perfectly suitable instruments for this tune. But I think the instrument choice should be good enough. The instrument that would play the melody would be the eerie type of instrument you hear playing in the X-Files theme song.
But I would prefer a choir instrument to play the melody. It would have to be an eerie choir that conveys the same type of vibe of the eerie instrument in the X-Files theme. Anyway, this melody is catchy, memorable, and great like the rest of my tunes and it conveys profound horror:
https://youtu.be/IfnQ-yKnGIY
Now, here is the soundcloud links to all of those tunes I've just presented to you:
https://soundcloud.com/user-432115982/dramatic
https://soundcloud.com/user-432115982/dramaticslow
https://soundcloud.com/user-432115982/dramaticfast
https://soundcloud.com/user-432115982/beautifultune
https://soundcloud.com/user-432115982/bestdarktheme1
https://soundcloud.com/user-432115982/bestdarktheme2
https://soundcloud.com/user-432115982/distantfuture1
https://soundcloud.com/user-432115982/distantfuture2
https://soundcloud.com/user-432115982/distantfuture3
https://soundcloud.com/user-432115982/hauntingtune
https://soundcloud.com/user-432115982/lesson
https://soundcloud.com/user-432115982/lovelytheme
https://soundcloud.com/user-432115982/supermariogalaxy1
https://soundcloud.com/user-432115982/supermariogalaxy2
https://soundcloud.com/user-432115982/weirdtune
Lastly, here is a link to the music sheets of my tunes so you can see what types of notes and rests I've chosen:
https://ibb.co/h08Gqz
https://ibb.co/dNYhVz
https://ibb.co/gsoPd9
https://ibb.co/e5dqJ9
https://ibb.co/bsyAkp
https://ibb.co/iuybQp
https://ibb.co/cMKGQp
https://ibb.co/cAW7WU
https://ibb.co/m0X35p
https://ibb.co/hC8MrU
https://ibb.co/dVuVJ9
I am actually going to point out the music sheet of one of my tunes which would be the Super Mario Galaxy tune. I have circled the pattern of notes I see in that tune which proves I'm not just coming up with melodies with randomly placed notes or, what I like to call, just plain ruckus. What's interesting is that I did not sit there and think of a pattern of notes. Rather, this melody came to me through pure inspiration alone and, sure enough, I discovered that this inspired melody actually has a pattern of notes to it.
This means my brain can create great, catchy tunes through pure inspiration alone with no intellectualizing before hand. Of course, I do think of certain scenes to be inspired by in order to come up with these melodies. But I do not sit there and think what notes I should use to convey whatever scene, character, or atmosphere I want to convey. I let the inspiration alone create the music. It's no different than how artists say they let the inspiration alone create the work of art. Whenever I feel positively inspired, I let that emotion create the music.
Koji Kondo is the composer for video games such as Super Mario and The Legend of Zelda. Now, this Super Mario Galaxy tune I made is something I think is just as great and catchy as any one of Koji's tunes (but might not sound good or catchy in its current, beginning stage of development). There are certain tunes Koji Kondo makes which are short tunes. An example would be the tune you hear when Mario obtains the Grand Star in Super Mario Galaxy 2. I have created my own tune to express that scene and I think it's just as good as any one of Koji's tunes.
That might sound arrogant of me. But, if I was truly arrogant, then I would be saying it's a fact that the tunes I'm creating in my mind are just as good as Koji's tunes. I'm not saying it's a fact. I am merely keeping an open mind to this possibility. I have every reason to keep an open mind to this because, from what it sounds like, this tune really does sound just as good and catchy as one of Koji's tunes. I have suspended all factors that would make an inflated judgment and I have honestly judged this tune to be just as good and catchy as one of his tunes.
If someone else made this tune, then I would see it as being just as good as Koji's tunes. Whether this is just a crap tune and it's simply my lack of knowledge and experience rendering me unable to tell the difference between a crap tune from a really good one has yet to be determined. Like I said before, only time will tell and it's only when I successfully convey/fully develop this tune would it be determined for sure if this tune really is as good as I say it is or not. I will say one last thing before I move onto the Q&A Section.
It takes a gifted composer to convey something great, catchy, profound, memorable, and powerful in one simple melody. I think I have that gift, but have to find a way to convey it. If there's any skilled composer out there who can convey my melodies, then I would tell them to feel free to convey them. I will show them the music sheets to my tunes and they can get to work. But, if it's really the case that only I can convey these melodies since I know what they are, then I'll have to forget about others conveying my melodies for me.
Q&A Section
Other Person's Response: You've got to be joking!
My Reply: I'm not joking. I really think the tunes I'm hearing in my mind are really good and that I have yet to find a way to convey them. I have every reason to think I'm creating really good tunes in my head and I explain why soon enough.
Other Person's Response: What makes you think you are creating really good tunes in your head? For all we know, they could be crap tunes.
My Reply: As I said before, I have autism and it's said that autistic people are gifted. People who are gifted tend to be incapable in other areas and highly advanced in one area and I think I could be that person. I think I might be creating really good music in my mind that I have yet to share to the world. Once people recognize its greatness, they should see me in a whole new light. There is also another reason why and I explain it soon enough.
Other Person's Response: You see, Matt the Fraud, people who compose music that other people may want to listen to don't write whopping great treatises about what they are going to do. They simply get on with it. However, having heard bits and bobs of your previous attempts, I'd strongly advise you to take up gardening.
My Reply: First of all, I'm not trying to fraud anybody. I give all the reasons why I think these tunes I hear in my mind really are great and catchy. Second, I haven't been feeling up to composing yet due to my miserable, unhappy struggles. Therefore, I have instead chosen to write about my composing dream in the meantime until I feel up to learning how to compose. Lastly, my tunes might very well sound awful and that is to be expected at this point.
Even though I've gotten the right notes and rests to these amazing, catchy tunes I hear in my mind, that's not enough in order for music to sound good. So, all you're listening to is the notes and rests to these tunes. But something more is needed to successfully convey the greatness and catchy quality of these tunes and I don't know what that is yet. I have to learn it.
Other Person's Response: It seems to me you really are trying to fraud people. Why else would you write this whole packet?
My Reply: It's because I have problems with the personal views of other people and I feel the need to speak up for myself and to thoroughly address said issues. I have an issue with other people who claim that my emotions aren't the source of value in my life. So, that's why I've written so many of my other packets which talk about how emotions are value judgments.
I also have an issue with people who have unreasonably high standards when it comes to works of art whether said works be comedy, music, or anything else. So, that's why I've written this whole packet. I also just wish to share everything that's on my mind regarding my composing dream. It would be like how someone wishes to write every single thing that's on his mind in his journal and share it.
Other Person's Response: I just have a quick, random question for you. Are you tone deaf?
My Reply: I don't think so. If people were to play two notes, I would be able to tell the difference. Also, when I look at the keyboard, I know all my note names. If anyone were to choose a note on the keyboard, I would be able to tell them what note name it is (such as if it's a C#, a D, a G#, etc.). But, if I were to look away from the keyboard and someone were to play notes, I wouldn't be able to tell them what notes they are.
Other Person's Response:
You can't create any amazing, catchy music in your mind if you don't know how to do it. So, you're only deluding yourself into believing these tunes you have in your head convey scenes, are catchy, and are great tunes.
My Reply: I know instinctively how to express sadness, anger, or joy if I felt sad, angry, or joyful. The same idea applies to making music in my mind. I know instinctively how to create great, catchy tunes in my mind that express whatever emotion I'm feeling.
I would call my musical instinct a higher instinct and a more advanced form of expression since I'm creating amazing, emotionally powerful and profound tunes in my head as opposed to simply performing certain gestures or tones of voice. In other words, I can express myself through music far better than what any tones, acts, and gestures can.
Only in my mind though at this point. So, you are wrong. I don't need to know how music works. I just need to channel whatever emotion I'm feeling. The only time I need to know how music works is if I wish to successfully convey the music I hear in my mind (which I want to do).
Also, I only channel the positive emotions because I see nothing beautiful about negative emotions. When I create dark or dramatic sounding tunes, I'm actually channeling positive emotions. They would be powerful, dramatic, good feelings.
Other Person's Response: Your whole idea that you somehow know instinctively how to create good, powerful, and catchy music in your head is plain nonsense!
My Reply: Music is a part of me since it's something so profound and beautiful to me. I may not know music technically. But I do know it personally (instinctively). So, I consider music to be an extension of myself which means I can instinctively create great music in my head.
I do not need to know the technical information of how to express love, hate, sorrow, or joy because I can do that naturally on my own. Sure, there is technical information on that (which has to do with evolution and psychology).
If I was a robot, then I would read this technical information because I wouldn't have the instincts of a human being. But, since I am a human being, then I can instinctively express things like love and joy without studying up on evolution and psychology.
The same thing applies to music. That's how I instinctively know how to create powerful and catchy tunes in my head that express whatever I want to express. For now, I'm just creating tunes and not anything fully crafted in my head.
Other Person's Response: You are wrong. You never had any musical gift and you should give up right now. Instead, pursue a different hobby.
My Reply: How do people know that the tunes I've created in my mind are nothing good and catchy? I haven't even conveyed them yet. In other words, I haven't gotten the chance to fully craft these tunes and am only sharing them now "as is."
So, other people shouldn't be jumping to this conclusion that I never had any musical gift and am better off giving up. Besides, many artists were told they should have given up. Yet, it's their perseverance that led them to become great artists.
Other Person's Response: You said you were going to learn how to compose many years ago. Yet, here you are still coming up with these horrendous tunes. From this, I can conclude you are too lazy to learn and have no talent. So, you are better off just giving up.
My Reply: That's not it. I've struggled much of my life with many miserable moments and that's why I've not even bothered learning. I can't stand doing my hobbies without my positive emotions which is why I don't even bother.
Now, it's just a matter of time waiting for me to fully recover from this recent emotional trauma I've had. I'm doing just fine now and I have to wait a little bit longer for my positive emotions to return back to me on their own.
Once they do, then I'll start learning how to compose since I would be able to have fun and enjoy the whole process. I personally don't think any conclusions as to whether my musical claims are true or not should be drawn when I haven't even gotten the chance to fully craft these tunes.
Other Person's Response: You're 29 years old. That is a bit late to begin learning how to compose. Why the delay?
My Reply: There are two reasons why. The 1st would be that composing wasn't something I took up until later on in my life. The 2nd would be that I've struggled much of my life with many miserable moments. It was a cycle I was in and I have finally broken free of that cycle. Now that I'm no longer miserable and almost have my positive emotions back to me, I'll soon be ready to learn how to compose. I don't think I will have anymore of those miserable moments again.
Other Person's Response: I bet, even if you fully regained your positive emotions, you still wouldn't dedicate much time to learning how to compose and you still wouldn't go through with your composing dream.
My Reply: That's false. Once I have my positive emotions, then I would be fully dedicated to achieving my goal. I would dedicate many hours each day. I used to do this with my previous hobby (which was playing video games). As long as I could have fun and enjoy them, then I would play them for many hours each day. But, when I struggle with misery, then I don't even bother with them.
Other Person's Response: What you're doing here is making an irrational judgment of these tunes you have in your head because it's a judgment that doesn't match up with reality. As a matter of fact, many people make such irrational judgments all the time. For example, I could truly perceive a random stranger on my streets as a horrible, disgusting person simply because this is how I feel about him/her. But that would be my own judgment which doesn't make it true.
My Reply: I don't know about that yet. It could really be the case these tunes really are that great and that I just have to find a way to convey them. Music is something so personal and profound to me that it could be the case that I can naturally come up with great tunes in my head through inspiration alone.
It would be like how an anime character is profoundly connected to the fire spirit and, as a result, is naturally gifted in the art of the fire spirit. That character would be gifted mentally since it's a mental/spiritual connection with the fire spirit.
In other words, that character can be inspired with wonderful, amazing ideas through the fire spirit. But some knowledge and training would be needed in order for that character to convey his ideas.
This analogy applies to me because I would be profoundly connected to the spirit of music and can be inspired to come up with great tunes in my head. I'm not saying the spirit of music is an actual spirit. That would just be a metaphor.
Other Person's Response: I think you will eventually come to realize that, even though your notes do adhere to a key, your tunes really convey nothing and are nothing great or catchy. Even if your tunes become fully crafted, they would still be meaningless tunes. Once you learn more about composing, you should come to realize this.
My Reply: If that's the case, then I'm not sure at this point how I'm supposed to come up with any real good, catchy tunes that convey the scenes I want to convey. I've been relying on my instincts/inspiration alone to do the job. But, if all that's doing is resulting in the creation of meaningless, worthless tunes, then I would have to rely on a different method that actually works.
Even if I fully knew everything I needed to know about composing, my whole method of channeling emotion/inspiration into my mind in creating tunes would only yield these meaningless tunes. So, if there's some other method out there that works, then I would love to learn it.
Another thing here. I know I said earlier I got the right notes and rests to these tunes down. But I'm not ear trained. So, it could be the case that I simply think I've reproduced the right notes and rests to these tunes in my mind when I really didn't.
*Note: Part 2/3 of this is continued below*
